Depression

Why is depression still such a taboo subject in this day and age? Why are women still frightened to admit that they need a bit of help after a baby is born, for fear that they will be labelled a bad mum. Why do people feel that they have to suffer in silence?  Sorry to do such a down subject but I really am not feeling today at all.  I've suffered with depression on and off over the years, gosh it's been that long, that I can't even remember when it all first started.  I'm good when it comes to taking my anti-depressants but even I still get down days.  I normally cook ever day of the week as my own sort of therapy but I haven't done any at all this week so perhaps its all just caught up with me.  I couldn't tell you specifically what's wrong only that everything seems to be in slow motion, and I myself just feel sluggish and blah!  Of course life has to go on because I just can't take to my bed (although I wish I could) as I have Mackenzie & Savannah to look after.  I look at them and sometimes a smile passes my lips but, I don't feel it deep down if you know what I mean?

I actually felt like running last night.  Working everything out in my head, looked up b&b's that I could stay in (incidentally I found one that was £120 for 7 days) right next to the beach as well.  I had this whole scenario mapped out in my head, how i would go, stay in this b&b, after a day of rest I would go out and see if I could find a job.  Basically living a single person, with no attachments life.  But then I realised, I couldn't do that to my kids, just go away and leave them wondering if I was ever coming back.  Of course once I had myself sorted I would have sent for them but it was the actual doing it.

Any way, lets get off that topic and talk childhood food memories.  What is the one meal that takes you straight back to your childhood? I'm having mine right now! A Fish Finger Sandwich!!! Is there anything better, I'd like to know lol.

Is anyone else not interested in this John Terry Race Trial that is going on at the moment?  However many thousands of pounds, it has cost to take this incident to trial, the maximum possible sentence that he can get is a £2,500 fine.  That isn't going to make even a dent in what he earns.  Yes I agree that he should be punished for what he has "allegedly" done, but why drag it through the courts for such a meager sum of money.  Surely it would be better for his club to fine him say 3 months wages? Perhaps that would make him think twice before saying anything be it in jest or not!

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-london-18827915

Finally feeling a bit better : ) I have a lot to be thankful for, a good husband, my own home and 5 healthy children.  I think I need to remember this when I have a down day.  There are a hell of a lot more people in a worse off position than I am.

Breaking news.  My 13 year old son has agreed to let me cut his hair.  Now you may not think this is a big deal, but believe me it is.  He has afro hair and has been growing it for the past few months.  The only problem is, it is unruley.  He has very tight curls, which get incredibly knotted and you literally cannot do anything with it.  The reason he has asked me to cut it, it is his 14th birthday next Thursday and he has asked me and his dad to buy him a morph suit, (don't ask)!  Apparently it won't look right on him if his hair is the way it is now so he want's it cut.  Result!!!!

For those of you who don't know what a morph suit is, visit http://www.morphsuits.co.uk/?src=google&gclid=CLzumoWTl7ECFQRTfAodkBjp7A

BEFORE

AFTER

Total weight of hair cut off 2 1/4oz.  Don't ask me why we weighed it he just wanted to know lol.

Signing off for now. 

Fran x